DIARIST
The notes application on one's phone can be the most intimate insight into a person's thoughts. Recently i took an afternoon to go through my notes and unraveled a diary of the last 5 years. Below is a selection of those diary fragments, those that tell me something i still need to hear.
20/03/18
‘Outside history man is a nonentity’
-we make ourselves entities through conceiving a reality (an intrinsically human existence)
-is reality a process?
Fascism wants to look to the past, has its own radical vision that looks to the future (alternative modernity)
2/4/18
A burst of energy
Shows me where I’m meant to be
Creatively
6/4/18
I’m certain in my uncertainty
I lie awake while participating in a dream
I know not of reality,
But of partiality
22/10/18
The rise of the creative class
Richard Florida
24/11/18
Music
Have 15 minutes of actual song and 15 of the inbetween bits
Concept- have 15 mins in total, freestyle collectively to the sounds, ideas, words that lead one to the next, 3 mins of jam (various stages of) each one representing a songs between songs (the in-betweens)
The clavenette
Refrain the end of each verse- no chorus (instrument break alternation)
29/11/18
Kobena Mercer-welcome to the jungle
Harlem Renaissance
Coco fusco - the bodies that were notated
Olympia’s maid
19/12/18
https://accessions.org/article2/poethics-of-the-open-boat/
https://accessions.org/article2/fractal-thinking/
https://issuu.com/amilcarpacker/docs/denise_ferreira_da_silva
3/1/19
Stringing all the stages into one continuous narrative
14/1/19
A family with 4 children go and stay at a hotel in London. Big week away.
It gets to night time and one at a time the children go missing. It turns out they’re being stolen by giants who are having a food convention, they are using the children to make meatballs. One of the children giants take pity on the children and makes friends with them. Together they come up with an escape plan.
(The owner of the hotel is half giant) - which is why he allows the convention to be held there, but he’s under the impression no children will be taken.
17/1/19
Is a black hole deforming or reforming spacetime?
Is there a body that exists that does not absorb or reflect electromagnetic energy- but just perpetuates (or allows for) it’s existence?
In the equation for baryon number we are only able to measure the most stable particles (protons/ neutrons). Perhaps anti-matter is made up of less stable particles, leads to precarious measurements
How can the stability of a particle be altered?
What would happen if anti-matter was more dominant than matter?
4/2/19
Chapter one is the theoretical framework that outlines the way in which the thesis is going to be framed (negation of power etc)- essentially a method
Theoretical framework is cultural studies and how the negation of power between British society and blackness is negotiated
6/2/19
Brighton library
Without guarantee: in honour of Stuart hall (306 HAL)
Desire by design: body, territories and new technologies (709.22 DES)
26/2/19
Can humanity have a collective relatively?
1/3/19
The social and political circumstances that provoked creative resilience.
10/4/19
Angela
We only exist as ourself in relation to others
Struggle is framed in the framework of capitalism , whereby freedom is achievable and complete
The potential collectivity of organisation. As opposed to masculinised individual charismatic.
Inclusion without justice isn’t progressive.
To include those in a system of oppression is not progression.
Black studies should be about transformation and knowledge.
Production of knowledge outside the university is meaningful
Yoshi Yamamoto
5/6/19
Creativity is what you make it. It’s a way in which exist through expression, to express through creation, to create through vision.
7/6/19
Meditation
Let us lead, how we wish to be followed.
18/6/19
Our shadow shows the truth of our being
Without hesitation
18/10/19
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magazine person
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Theatre person
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Gallery person
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Museum person
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University person
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Newspaper person
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Music person
3/11/19
Nearer my God to me- Sam Cooke
Jesus gave me water- Sam Cooke
No one but me- Gregory Issacs
5/5/20
Wisdoms from the mountains
9/5/20
In the beginning there was silence. Start with a completely gentle piece move to a dnb track (spoken word to emotive song)
22/4/20
I know I am speaking
I can hear the vibrations in my throat and ears
But I don’t recognise the voice
It is dull and monotone
Lifeless
But I am not lifeless
28/4/20
Spirit has been lost in the virtual dimension
28/4/20
How come what is natural feels so uncomfortable?
11/12/20
The curvature of a pear, the round and delicate drop sinking deeper and deeper into my hand
4/2/21
Logic X shortcuts .
Command a- highlight all the notes/highlights all regions
Hold shift- while selecting notes (more than one)
Enter- brings it back to beginning
Hold alt and drag- copies
L- to loop
K- turns metronome on and off
R- record
option left and right- nudge (must highlight)
Command arrows- zoom and un-zoom
Highlight Z- puts into window
Command access secondary tool
option arrows- moves octave
C- cycle repeat
S- solo a track
M-mute a track
Control M- mute one note
A- automation (change vol on track)
Command Z- undo
28/4/22
The wound is the place light enters you
2/7/22
Words
Pernicious
Copacetic
Ipseity
Temporal
Egregious
Aetiology
9/7/22
I met a mountain
Voice of creation
It told me sweetly
That life’s worth living
16/8/22
Who looks out with my eyes? What is the soul? I cannot stop asking. - Rumi (The Tavern)
8/9/22
I remember the darkness
The fullness of beginning
31/12/22
Collection
Eroticism
The sun
Sensual
Angels
Connection
Essay
Poetry
Story/diary entry
Song
Spoken word
List
21/3/23
I miss the memory,
Not the truth of me
30/3/23
Gratitude makes water taste sweet